Making up the Difference
This afternoon I had a consultation with an EMDR therapist.
She had a copy of The Body Keeps the Score on her shelf. I stopped in mid-sentence when I spotted its familiar blue cover.
"You have that book! That book's the reason I'm here!"
"A lot of people tell me that, actually," she replied.
We hit it off, but I have my doubts I'll be able to make the treatment work. She recommended meeting once a week over the next few months, and she's out of network.
"You have a $4,000 deductible," the insurance representative told me cheerfully over the phone. "Once you meet the deductible we'll cover forty percent of the approved cost. If the fees are more than the approved costs, though, you'll have to pay for the difference. Plus sixty percent."
I'm not opposed to investing in my health, but $4,000 is a lot of money--not to mention the time I'd have to take off of work to attend appointments each week. I'm investigating some online EMDR treatments, though, and learning more about other therapies: IFS and neurofeedback, to name a few.
My anxiety and depression are fairly well managed. But I'm sick of having to tinker with my SSRI prescription every few months. I'm sick of having the occasional breakdown that leaves me unable to function. I'm sick of feeling stuck and out of control. There's got to be a better way. I just haven't found one that's affordable yet.