Big Weekend Plans
It's been a long week of nonstop meetings and tasks.
I'm exhausted. I can feel it in the heaviness of my body, the way my attention blinkers in and out. My desire to write has been snuffed like a flame, because I know that the energy it takes to work my way back to the necessary headspace is more energy than I have.
Hopefully this weekend will be somewhat restorative. The toddler has Big Plans with his grandma this Saturday. He's been talking about them all week. He's going to make a marshmallow cake. Then he's going to watch a movie. Then he's going to have a picnic in the park.
I typed up a lengthy blog post last night while the baby played in the tub, using the toilet seat as a makeshift laptop stand. I was trying to get it done a little early so I could watch a movie after the kids went to bed. But as I highlighted a few words to add a link, my entire post disappeared. Disgusted, I retyped the Anne Truitt quote I planned to include and just hit "publish." My shortest post yet. A middle finger to circumstance.
Afterward I watched "Arrival," even though it meant going to bed after 10 p.m. I thought the movie was wonderful. If I had more time I would map all the plot points out to the hero's journey, to better understand how they all fit together. YouTuber Evan Puschak of Nerdwriter did a really nice video analysis, though be warned--it contains lots of spoilers.
The toddler doesn't know it, but I have big plans for Saturday, too. I'm going to read books and blogs. Sip coffee. Write morning pages. Watch painting videos on YouTube. And then I'm going to take a nap.
It's going to be amazing.